So May was wildly busy for me. It was mostly a preparation month for visitors in June. What made it even more hectic is that for a few weeks I had just about something everyday after work. This made the weekends incredibly busy and full of work. At the same time, I had something one day a week on the weekends. I tried to limit my commitments, and made sure I had one day free on the weekend. But it wasn’t enough.
Well it was enough to get all my work done, but my mental health suffered a lot. It meant that when BEA/BookCon came around at the end of May, I was wrung out. Totally burnt out. Some of you who looked at my social media, may have seen me talking a bit about this. Even those who saw me on Blogboundcon would have seen that I was covering up my burn out and creative slumps hard. I was just barely staying above water and it was hard for me to feel happy.
So part of why I haven’t posted this in a while was just that I took a half step away from blogging. I began to focus only on the books I had made a definitive commitment to review. This alleviated some of my stress, but it wasn’t enough. I needed to put actual effort into a mentality change. I had to figure out how to make it a lifestyle change. How to feel better about it, because the guilt has been crushing. But I’m not there yet completely.